Resolve














"Doesn't make much sense,
How we struggle and cry,
But strong is our resolve,
As we stare death in the eye!"

Dearest,

Today feels like it would be another humid, putrid day, but that isn't what was getting me angry right now. In the words of Three Days Grace "Anger and agony, Are better than misery..."

In the course of my life, pain has been frivolous notion, because whenever I endured pain, it never hurt, much. The endurance of pain, be it from getting a beating or walking 5 miles never meant much to me. As I grew up, I learned to live with it - 'pain endurance', as I sometimes tell my friends about it.
Going back to Three Days Grace, they are quite right you see. There isn't much use moaning and moping about failures, but better to live and learn from them.

Referring back to my anger, dearest, it was triggered because my friend got angry for some unknown reason.
I tried to understand her plight, but she didn't wish to talk about it. I tried to make her understand that **** happens in life, but she was still mad. Nothing I said calmed her. So I sought help from my Lord, as usual, asking Him to calm my friend's anxiety, and grant her patience.

In the morning I called Muhtasim, asking if he would come, but he asked me to be excused for today, so I didn't mind, and told him not to come.

Afterwords I got ready for the afternoon prayers and wrote the intro for today. Kitty was listening to Three Days Grace when he was playing Tiberium last night remember? I tried to give it a go. They rock! :)
Their vocalist sounds exactly like Benjamin Burnley. (awesome!)
Their songs are helping me today.

After prayer, I sat to read the Quran, and called my friend asking how her mom and brother were. She had called me last night saying that they were seriously ill - another reason for her anger. I told her a cure, and hope that would help. My mom used that cure when I was once sick. It was so bad that I started hallucinating about an old broken down house, among a few trees. Something like a scene from Warrior Within, where the Prince wanders through the present "Hanging Gardens".
It was a nauseating experience. Then mom used her cure, and I was fine within a few hours. I still had to go to the doctor, though, but before mom cured me, I couldn't even move!

I need to go now, dearest, on some errands for mom.

Till L8R!

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