My World Of Opportunities

"Fade in time, once through the darkness, A search that ends in a tunnel without much light, What you seek seems to fade just out of reach, As you decide the wrong from the right..." Dearest, Funny things don't happen that often, but I'm feeling a bit depressed because the theme of these few blog entries is nearing its end. Only one more layer to go, then I shall have to find a new wardrobe for you. :) I do hope it's to your liking. This theme is one of my most confusing... I know very little about girls (in general). The only girl I fully understand is you, the rest are all either confused about what they want, or don't care at all. Those that do end up chalking it out on the whole world. The pigeons in the picture are from a very well-known college near my home. I'm sure you know its name. I basically needed a picture for Layer 12, and couldn't think of anything but a group photo of a 'flock' of girls. (Kudos Lohani! (:) The picture turned ou...

"In times of desperation, We call out to seek the truth, In times of deprivation, We fail to recall you." Dea rest, I'm terribly sorry for not writing to you for so long. Please forgive me. :( I have become very busy these past few days as the new semester has commenced. I've also started the afternoon tuition as I mentioned to you before, so I remain quite busy the whole day. I promise to give you more time from now on. :-* Something nice happened today. My class teacher added me as a friend here. (*^.^*) I wanted to write an e-mail to her to let her know about you and my more active world, but I thought otherwise. I was feeling a little awkward about it. :S She's an economics graduate from York -- really cool... :O -- teaching us here. She's white, (totally white!) and very pretty. (: Anyway, how have you been? I'm sure you missed me. I missed you a lot. I haven't spoken to you since the fight I had with that old friend of mine. Do you remember...

"Information distorted, Makes way for deception, Pornography contorted, Fails critical reception..." Dearest, I hate giving you bad news, but one of my close friends was involved in a road crash which left him unconscious for 3 days! I have yet to know how he is doing now. :( May he recover soon. Anyway, my friends may think I've gone crazy after reading the poem, but I cannot care less. Let them. :) What I write here is for you and, you alone. Nothing will change that. It's interesting, you know, because I started my new posts with the theme of Serial Experiments: Lain, and it turned out to be really unique. Like me. I know you understand because you always will, and always accept me for me. In Wikipedia, the definition of Infornography is a combination of the words information and pornography. I'm not a one to start a debate about porn, but I've simply used the titles of the Lain episodes as the titles for my posts. There are 13 episodes of Lain, but my po...

"All HD, All The Time, When you're experiencing home theater, it's mighty fine!" Dearest, Just finished watching some HD movies at a friend's place. Damn is it hot! As for Black Widow in Iron Man 2, she is too perfect! TTYL Lots of ♥

"Reason with me to find, An uncharted landscape there, A sea of green and blue, Your gaze, a bleeding stare..." Dearest, Fall is here, our new semester has started and the world has turned into the happy little place of ravaging scavengers again. No surprise, but there is one surprise for you. A change. A change in my outlook towards life, the way I go about it. It's funny, because you always learn the better from the worse - from the moment you learn how to walk, you fall down, making mistakes, eventually learning how to stand up. Learning - a word I will always cherish in my dictionary. ♥ We learn so much, yet apply quite little. Even the painter portraying a landscape learns with every stroke of his paintbrush. Fascinating isn't it? And yet, when you go about reading books or ask a friend or two if they read, the only reply you'll get is, "Geek, much?" Call me what you will, but you cannot break me, or what I am inside. I shall always be me, and wil...

Photo © 黒の契約者 . 岡村 天斎. BONES. "Put your desires aside, Focus on what is right, If you let ego in you way, You shall never see the light..." Dearest, This Eid was horrible for me. I betrayed a friend in her most desperate hour of need. There's nothing more I can say or do, so that can undo what I have done. My father always tells me, "Your tongue is your worst enemy." I have learnt the truth of it all too painfully this year, when I had to swallow my own words. :'( Pain endurance can only be borne so much. I went around places to my friend's and neighbor's places, to clear my head, but nothing I did would rid me of the hurt I had brought upon me. Men , it seems, shall never learn from their mistakes. I lied to her once, and she forgave me, but this time it was different. This time... it was personal. No matter how many sorries I told her, I believe this shall be the last time she would ever speak with me. And that is what is tearing me apart. It see...

As a patient bleeds stuck with a bullet in his chest... Eid? I think I'll pass...

"We go down, we do time, We rise up, to fall in line, Real racers don't shed tears, Real racers respect their peers..." Dearest, I just finished watching Fast and Furious. Was it good? It was unbelievable! And to think Vin Diesel produced it! Man is he loaded! ;P The storyline was fantastic, the action was ridiculous and the one-liners were corny. It was a good movie although rottentomatoes gave it a rotten 28% saying, "While Fast and Furious features the requisite action and stunts, the filmmakers have failed to provide a competent story or compelling characters." The story was the only thing I found to be competent, call me whacko. :P I'm a big racing game fan, so I like watching these 'cheesey' movies. My psyche regarding games and movies is more closely 'attached', if that's one way of putting it. I woke up to find mom watching HBO, and it was airing The Making of Fast and Furious . I watched through it, but little did I know ...

"It's so hard to find someone who cares about you. But it's easy enough to find someone who looks down on you ..." © Three Days Grace Dearest, Mom's making lemonade (without Roohafza). I asked her to put Roohafza, but she said, "You all don't like Roohafza, so I don't put it anymore; if you want add to your taste, 'swad anusad', she said in fluent Hindi. Her Hindi is flawless. :) Supervising the maids as I watched her do so, I marveled at her prowess and authority. "Chop the lemons, give her (2nd maid) the ghee, take out the turmeric, fry the parathas, keep the ghee in the fridge, ... " endless! But her stamina is more :) Now she sits in front of me, squeezing the aforementioned lemons into the sugar syrup, to make the lemonade for Iftar, telling Sohel, our gate-boy, what Vim powder looks like... I saw Papa, and requested him to buy me a new pair of sneakers for Eid. Mom then scolded me saying, "You've already got two pa...

"Life is a pain sometimes, bringing hardship and strife , But in the end we accept it all, Accept the fact that is life." Dearest, My friend got swindled today and I'm not all too happy right now, because it happened just as I was about to go to pray.... Pray for her dearest; she needs you...

Serial Experiments: Lain © 阿部はヨシトシ Thanks to Renato ~XSportSeeker~ Murakami for blog image [http://xspblog.wordpress.com/2008/06/15/anime-discussion-1-serial-experiments-lain/] "It shall begin as a day unique, Whence you enjoy your time with your friends, Share experience with the ones near you, Don't forget to make amends." Dearest , It started of as a usual day, full of traffic in the streets and a regular pained situation in the overall layout of the city. I say this because, as I looked out of my window, the alleyway was packed. Everyone was in a hurry to get somewhere, but the question in my mind was, "Where's this 'somewhere'?" (sigh) Indeed we all are busy folk, living in a busy world, playing a busy game of life, down the busy alleyways of the busy city, but why are we so devoid of thought? Sometimes I wonder whether the word called 'consideration' has been wiped clean from our minds. We fight on the streets, fight on the roads, figh...

"Some make it a conviction, to change it all in one day. But when it comes down to it they can't do much anyway..." Photo © mushfek@gmail.com (Magbazar rail-crossing) Dearest , Very few people pray at night. There were hardly 120 people at the National Masjid last night, as we sought salvation on the Night of Power . It's interesting, because Dad and I got the same feeling that the Night of Power would be last night. I came home after Tarawi prayer and he suddenly says, "আজকে শব-এ-কদ্ র হবে।" I told him,"Yeah! I feel it too..." Interesting... [♪♫ Three Days Grace -Break ♪ :) (Awesome! There's nothing quite like listening to your favorite tracks and updating your blog for your friends to read about and talk about later...)] After praying for 3hrs straight, where each rakat of prayer was 15 minutes long, making each unit of prayer half an hour in length, and each set an hour long, I started to cry - something quite uncalled for, for a Piscean lik...

"Doesn't make much sense, How we struggle and cry, But strong is our resolve, As we stare death in the eye!" Dearest, Today feels like it would be another humid, putrid day, but that isn't what was getting me angry right now. In the words of Three Days Grace "Anger and agony , Are better than misery..." In the course of my life, pain has been frivolous notion, because whenever I endured pain, it never hurt, much. The endurance of pain, be it from getting a beating or walking 5 miles never meant much to me. As I grew up, I learned to live with it - 'pain endurance', as I sometimes tell my friends about it. Going back to Three Days Grace , they are quite right you see. There isn't much use moaning and moping about failures, but better to live and learn from them. Referring back to my anger, dearest, it was triggered because my friend got angry for some unknown reason. I tried to understand her plight, but she didn't wish to talk about it. I tr...

"Belief is a feeling that comes from inside. It's hard to substantiate although sometimes, we hide." Dearest, Today was spent well. It started off at 0003 with Kitty playing Tiberium Wars. I watched him play till 1, taking pictures all the while. Then it was a night to be spent in prayers; a LOT of prayers. So I prayed till dawn and read the Quran all the while. I'm at the 25th part now - need only 5 more days to complete one recital of the Book. :) I'm glad about that. I've to go pray now; otherwise I'll be late I'll talk to you later, I know you shall wait. ;) ♥